Birdmad Girl (sortastuck) wrote,
Birdmad Girl

check-in, one please

Haven't written for awhile. Humbling how fast life moves; haven't had the time for anything. Need to focus though and not get caught up in the rapid pace of things. Need to be on time for work, need to attend and study for class, need to see the doctor about my crazy head. Need to stop running around with so many people and focus on what's important in my life right now. Fuck all this noise - everything's a tizzy.

Always have things I need to do.... Really, I need to be back on those pills. They really helped sort out this mess I recognize as life. I keep catching myself saying "focus, focus, focus". It was so much easier when all that came naturally... I really don't want to go back to the dark place. Why can't my head regulate itself? Complicated anatomy.

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